"Kill someone if you mean business."
This soon became profoundly boring. Then I started hearing about satanists and demonic powers. I didn’t believe in the devil any more than I believed in God, but I decided to become a satanist. Now, I wasn’t involved in any group and all I knew was a little I’d read, but I started praying to satan. I made it into a kind of ritual where I’d go off and draw a pentagram and pray to the devil. Then one day a voice said to me, “Kill someone if you mean business.” I was actually a pacifist. Killing was far from my mind. I said: “Who’s ever done anything that I should kill them for?”
The voice immediately replied “Kill a kid. Innocent is better”. In an instant I realised that there really was a devil, and that there had to be a God who was stronger and good, because the voice I’d heard would have destroyed everything if something wasn’t standing in his way.
I was overwhelmed with fear and began asking God to not let the devil take me over. I even tried praying the sinner’s prayer, but nothing happened. Nights became terrifying.
"I can't be a christian, I pray to the devil."
But I couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed for about 15 minutes and I thought, “I have to get saved NOW!”
I went into the living room. All the lights were out by now except one on a table. The leader of the place was sitting in a chair next to the table with his Bible. He asked me what I was doing up. I said, “I have to talk.” He pulled up a footstool for me to sit on and said, “What do you want to talk about?”
I just started crying. Suddenly I was floating in space. There were no stars, no planets, no interstellar gasses. There was nothing. Then I heard a voice say, “Wide is the path that leads to destruction”.
And there I was, floating in infinity. Then I turned and saw a beam of light. It was about 2 feet in diameter and brilliant white. I thought every ray of light in the universe was compressed into that one beam. It didn’t spread like ordinary light, it was like a laser, but it was white. Then the voice said: “Straight is the gate, and narrow is the way that leads to life eternal. And few there be that find it.” And I floated into the beam and it shot through me. I recognised it was Jesus. I felt the fruits of the Spirit. My head flooded with all the Bible verses I’d memorised since I was a kid and all I could say was: “Of course, of course.” Then I heard a voice behind me saying, “Dennis got saved!” and I was back in the room. There were about 10 people behind me praying. I was the last one anyone expected to see get saved. The most profound thing after that was the peace I felt. I’d been fighting the Creator of the Universe all my life, and now I wasn’t. I didn’t know peace like that existed.